I wish I am not in this roller coaster ride of emotions, so I can share the usual good stuff, great find post. But then again, the reality of life is not all good stuff.
My usual multitasking self was put to test last week. I delivered my second son Luis Zavier Angelo preterm at 26 weeks. Small and frail at 2.04lbs and 13cm. Eight days passed since his unexpected birth, he is in stable condition and continuously fighting for his life. Luis is indeed a stronger version of me.
Sometimes I want to fast forward time so I can better understand the situation I am in right now. Sometimes I try to dissect all decisions and judgments I made to be put to this challenge. At times I feel safe because I know he is in the hands of good doctors. Sometimes, I just want to feel happy because I know I was given a chance to be a better mom but most of the time I just pray because I realize that I can never control the situation, as God will always be the one in charge.
Thank you to our family and friends that have extended help and who are continuously praying for Luis’ fast recovery.